I may have underestimated the enormity of what I have sought… is that even possible?!! I have chosen a new career, that of “Leader of the Free World”, and somehow underestimated the job. It is fitting. Like the dog who catches the car.
As I look at this moment, I can only be honest- It’s not MY idea… It belongs to EVERYONE. I’m just attempting to give it voice. And the more I interact with people, I FEEL it. It’s there… just out of reach. Have you seen “The Truman Show”?
Mayoral Candidate Jason Kander is having a Door Knocking Rally on Saturday and I REALLY want to go, but I don’t think it would be appropriate. I think I got lucky going to the “March For Our Lives” rally in KCK. If I had done that a few months from now, I could have ruined someone else’s event. That’s the LAST thing I want. And that makes me think “Maybe everyone’s right. Maybe I should shut up until after the midterms.”
Muddled messages, confused electorate, all valid arguments… I just think they are wrong. Be it tomorrow, be it December, either way… Let us start the journey NOW, united and focused on Our goals!
The Ship of State steers like the Titanic. The sooner we turn to avoid the iceberg the better. Right now we are plowing into it HEAD ON. So… wait. In that framework, I think we’ll be ok. The watertight compartment will hold. Wow! That metaphor ended abruptly, and in an unexpected way…
I continue to question it myself. I cannot forget- “Twitter is NOT IRL.” And until that bridge is a bit more “real”, I cannot move forward. In my mind, I cannot afford another misstep. But knowing I am helping to shape the national dialogue is HUMBLING. I’ve seen it twice just recently, and I am forever grateful! Thank you!
AND THAT IS CRAZY TALK! I am some guy with a Twitter account in Kansas! How is that even possible? (… aluminum foil.)
How does one explain to an everyday average person exactly what I’m doing? Fortunately, more and more people are waking up to the idea and explanation is NOT necessary! If I were to go and knock on doors and introduce myself, I could get quite a few votes… on my block. In my City. I am attempting to make every character count when I Tweet, showing my mindset for what future policy would look like. I am discussing and debating points of my platform with “real” people, in a “room” full of politicians, celebrities, journalists, heads of state, and delusional headcases. I am speaking my thoughts and feelings on prescient subjects, and making progress toward change.
For WHAT? For WHOM? For ME? Ha…! The level of INSANITY I am causing my wife is NOT what I want! The insatiable drive to gain a small note of accomplishment, to show her a glimmer of future prospects… and I can’t even get my identity verified on Twitter. I think many believe I am a Russian Bot… yet, I WILL persist.
And THAT is one of my faults… LIKE A MULE! I can be convinced when my thoughts are in error, but the argument must be solid. I am stubborn and my Sons are as well. It’s an unfortunate male Charbonneau trait it seems. I am attempting to direct that family trait by ensuring that stubbornness in my boys, is paired with EDUCATION.
Maybe that is how it works…
As I sit here with pencil and paper, thinking of what I am attempting… Am I insane, or just ahead of the curve?? It is an unnatural feeling, for a mere mortal. I hope I am worthy of such an awesome task. Just some random thoughts about my feelings. I need to go eat dinner so I can finish cleaning the house. It’s so bizarre to be doing dishes and get distracted by foreign policy or the United Nations Convention on the rights of the Child…
(MENTAL NOTE: order more dishwasher detergent)